Sunday, December 26, 2010
El Camino
Once again I find myself in all to familiar territory. The only difference is, this time around, I do not feel as though I have failed, and I do not feel that I have lost. Sometimes one can gain alot by just simply... walking away.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
UN
This has been quite an "un-" year...
unusual circumstances
unexpected loss and welcomed gain
unique situations
unforgettable moments and people
unconventional as the christmas tree pictured
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
BOA2
All our insecurities turn up in all our fears
And how we've tried to make our problems disappear
Never searching hard enough to find only more tears
Monday, August 16, 2010
{Y&M}{J2B}
I don't know what to make of you telling me you don't deserve this life with me. People don't get what they deserve. They get what they have the sense enough to hang onto for dear life. And if you don't want your happiness, too bad! Because I still want mine, and that means you.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Raising my flag
The last couple of days have been... E-VENT-FULL*... And through it all, this has been the resonating song.
Sonnet 75 | Nobody Leaves
So are you to my thoughts as food to life,
Or as sweet-season'd showers are to the ground;
And for the peace of you I hold such strife
As 'twixt a miser and his wealth is found;
Now proud as an enjoyer and anon
Doubting the filching age will steal his treasure,
Now counting best to be with you alone,
Then better'd that the world may see my pleasure;
Sometime all full with feasting on your sight
And by and by clean starved for a look;
Possessing or pursuing no delight,
Save what is had or must from you be took.
Thus do I pine and surfeit day by day,
Or gluttoning on all, or all away.
Or as sweet-season'd showers are to the ground;
And for the peace of you I hold such strife
As 'twixt a miser and his wealth is found;
Now proud as an enjoyer and anon
Doubting the filching age will steal his treasure,
Now counting best to be with you alone,
Then better'd that the world may see my pleasure;
Sometime all full with feasting on your sight
And by and by clean starved for a look;
Possessing or pursuing no delight,
Save what is had or must from you be took.
Thus do I pine and surfeit day by day,
Or gluttoning on all, or all away.
Monday, August 9, 2010
As My World Turns/Like Sands Through The Hourglass
I may have just made a bold move, or yet another impulsive decision.
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Location:89th St,North Bergen,United States
Friday, August 6, 2010
Gate F4/510/7:19/Newark/On Time
The reluctance to return home (to work at Sephora), as I routinely experienced with every previous trip, is no longer there. Instead, I find myself embracing my return home.
This trip was different in so many ways. Eye-opening at best.
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This trip was different in so many ways. Eye-opening at best.
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Location:Fort Lauderdale,United States
Thursday, August 5, 2010
8*11*10
That's right bitches... Brenda's back!
Brenda meets Jax... Brenda & Jason's wedding... Brenda & Sonny (The Church Shooting)...
i'm tumbling
Opened a tumblr. account. I can be found here NB/MAE/SIB. I'm not cancelling my blogger, NB/MAE/SIB will serve as an extension with a focus on audio/visual content.
FML
Yet another sleepless night. My brain is shit. So not in the mood for bullshit. Not even from me! No more!
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Location:Delray Beach,United States
Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow.
Growing up is never easy. Initially, you try to hold on to the things that were. Then, you wonder what's to come. Finally, you realize it's time to let go of what had been, and look ahead to what would be.
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Tuesday, August 3, 2010
habit + impulse = me (so far away)
This is my life, it's not what it was before
All these feelings I've shared
And these are my dreams
That I'd never lived before
Somebody shake me
'Cause I, I must be sleepin'
Never one to stray from my impulsive nature - I have changed my upcoming flight plan and will be heading home a tad earlier. The last couple of days have been a bit challenging for me. As I have expressed recently, I have outgrown the length of time I have spent between jobs and have become quite restless. While it has been a delight to not bare burden of employment, the experience is now tiresome. I am anxious to start my new job.
I feel that I may have miscalculated the length of my trip in relation to what awaits me back home. Flying back on a Monday and diving into a new job on a Wednesday is quite simply a poor strategy. There are some pending matters I need to address before starting work, which would be better handled within a more comfortable timeframe - days vs. hours.
I have enjoyed my time down here - I always do - and look forward to my next trip. In the midst of what has become a progressively overwhelming transition - shedding a five year routine, thereby altering a large part of my life for a potentially worthwhile future - I yearn for the habitual comforts and familiarity of home to get me through.
Traveling around sure gets me down and lonely
Nothing else to do but close my mind
I sure hope the road don't come to own me
There are so many dreams I have yet to find
But you're so far away
Nasty Habit
So I've fallen into my nasty habit, which happens every time I'm on holiday. I find myself at the mercy of a comfy couch, which I have been known to lay upon for hours on end throughout an entire day. The pay off is my present state - wide awake, without any motivational purpose. As a by-product of my inopportune alertness, I blog, skim
They're All Gonna Laugh At You! Best Worst Musical
Monday, August 2, 2010
Is Larry Shifflett Addicted To Meth?
There's a good reason why Larry Shifflett sometimes looks like he could be the next cover girl on Faces of Meth Quarterly. TMZ has it on good authority that if LaShi (pronounced Lash-e') ever called into KTU 103.5, he'd dedicate "You Light Up My Life" to meth. A source tells TMZ that LaShi's "drugs of choice" are meth and and more meth.
The source also claims that in addition to the meth addiction, LaShi will also be treated for bipolar disorder, constipation and restless leg syndrome when he checks into Wilton Manors Recovery Center, or as it is affectionately called Clubhouse II in Fort Lauderdale, FL. Clubhouse II was not on the list of rehab joints recommended by two court appointed psychiatrists. But Judge Marsha might have went with Clubhouse II as the facility LaShi completes her 90 days at, because their specialty is getting bitches off meth and more meth.
A Public Service Announcement on Meth:
A Public Service Announcement on Meth:
140 babble
I found it quite difficult to express my current state of being in the previous post. Thanks to Twitter's character limitations, I found the words...
While I am presently employed, I feel as though I am living an unemployed life.
And now, Tyra...
=SUM(A3,B3)-C3
Me = (New Job + Extended Time Off) - Five Year Routine
I have officially reached the halfway mark of my time off and I ambored restless. I have watched just about every Free On Demand movie and television show available. I have revised this post so many times, there is nary a trace of the original content. I want to work!
I have officially reached the halfway mark of my time off and I am
The Curious Case of the Glowstick Toilet
Awwww!!! Those were the days... When you tripped balls so hard, you would relinquish all cognitive control to the consumed psychoactive catalyst and conduct the fucking awesome foolishness documented below...
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Okay, so if not in my mouth, then where?!?!
There will come a time when you will have to put things in my mouth (or other orifices). How else will you achieve social acceptance!?!? Answer me THAT you furry blue turds!
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thank You, G'nite...
I am selfish, impulsive and insecure. I am reserved, reclusive and at times apathetic. I make mistakes and oftentimes can be hard to handle. Those of you who have experienced me at my worst, are truly deserving of my best.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Wepa! Estoy en Florida!
Landed a little less than an hour ago. Larry is getting his homosexual hair did, while I get to drool over some of the hot barbers and customers at New York's Finest.
I sho' cantell u dur be sum hot portorricans up in dis joint! I sho' wood lurve to squeeze some quenepas and peel some platanos! Ok-rrr!
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I sho' cantell u dur be sum hot portorricans up in dis joint! I sho' wood lurve to squeeze some quenepas and peel some platanos! Ok-rrr!
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Location:Stirling Rd,Davie,United States
Monday, July 26, 2010
Diz Bitch Rite Hur: A Letter To The Power Gay
Dear Power Gay,
Listen here bitch... And listen good... You need to check yo' self and your incessant emotional teeter toter. Have you been takin' pillz from Hope's medicine cabinet? If we sistuhz wuz livin' in da same projects, I would take yo' azz out and we would get our weave's and nails did. I'm being for real rite here.
You know, I think you need some lifting of spirit and maybe some synthetic extensions and some french tips would do you a world of good. Cause you know what they say, If you don't look good, then you obviously look like shit! That's what I've been told so I'm just sayin'.
I would offer up some praises from the book of the Lord for inspiration, but I ain't into that readin' shit. I get my knowledge and inspiration from watching ma stories and I think right now I am channeling Katherine Chancellor and your my Jill.
Anyways... Look... Whatever post food baby partem you's going through will pass like gas after an afternoon at the Taco Bells. Just beweave in yo'self, cause hurney you gonna be stuck with yo'self for a long time. And you can blame yo' parents for that mmm'kay.
As incomprehensible as my rant may have been, I hope it provided you with a few chuckles and perhaps some positive insight. Things will get better honey, of course that will happen in their own time. You may think you are just a passenger on the crazy train, but you'd be suprised how many times you can take over the controls and avoid certain stops. The best approach to the burden of life - it's many splendored unwanted gifts of doubt, aggravation and disappointment - is to take a few steps back to review the situation. Be objectively as possible and be confident in your resolve.
Yes, the world is full of cookie cutters, glossy duplicates, and toxic plastics. These superficials beings are in the biggest self esteem black hole. They have chosen to conform to social expectations, in a desperate search for acceptance is as temporary as any social trend. Unfortunately, conformity usually results in a minimal lack of personal emotions, lack of true self awareness and offer very little intellectual stimulation and development.
You, on the other hand, are a pretty fucking talented, eloquent, intellectual. You're fucking cute to boot, and you're humble about it. These traits represent real beauty, quite a rarity these days.
If you are taking a break from podcasting, I must say you'll be doing right by you. It may just be what you need. I know you've previously expressed concern about your lack of putting your drawing skills to work. This may just be the right time.
Anyways, I could go on but the Xanax is kicking into high gear, and I don't want to be held responsible for any Xanax induced writings that may make their way to the final post.
Keep ya' head up and stop doubting yourself, fucker!
Hugs,
Manny
Link: The Power Gay
Listen here bitch... And listen good... You need to check yo' self and your incessant emotional teeter toter. Have you been takin' pillz from Hope's medicine cabinet? If we sistuhz wuz livin' in da same projects, I would take yo' azz out and we would get our weave's and nails did. I'm being for real rite here.
You know, I think you need some lifting of spirit and maybe some synthetic extensions and some french tips would do you a world of good. Cause you know what they say, If you don't look good, then you obviously look like shit! That's what I've been told so I'm just sayin'.
I would offer up some praises from the book of the Lord for inspiration, but I ain't into that readin' shit. I get my knowledge and inspiration from watching ma stories and I think right now I am channeling Katherine Chancellor and your my Jill.
Anyways... Look... Whatever post food baby partem you's going through will pass like gas after an afternoon at the Taco Bells. Just beweave in yo'self, cause hurney you gonna be stuck with yo'self for a long time. And you can blame yo' parents for that mmm'kay.
As incomprehensible as my rant may have been, I hope it provided you with a few chuckles and perhaps some positive insight. Things will get better honey, of course that will happen in their own time. You may think you are just a passenger on the crazy train, but you'd be suprised how many times you can take over the controls and avoid certain stops. The best approach to the burden of life - it's many splendored unwanted gifts of doubt, aggravation and disappointment - is to take a few steps back to review the situation. Be objectively as possible and be confident in your resolve.
Yes, the world is full of cookie cutters, glossy duplicates, and toxic plastics. These superficials beings are in the biggest self esteem black hole. They have chosen to conform to social expectations, in a desperate search for acceptance is as temporary as any social trend. Unfortunately, conformity usually results in a minimal lack of personal emotions, lack of true self awareness and offer very little intellectual stimulation and development.
You, on the other hand, are a pretty fucking talented, eloquent, intellectual. You're fucking cute to boot, and you're humble about it. These traits represent real beauty, quite a rarity these days.
If you are taking a break from podcasting, I must say you'll be doing right by you. It may just be what you need. I know you've previously expressed concern about your lack of putting your drawing skills to work. This may just be the right time.
Anyways, I could go on but the Xanax is kicking into high gear, and I don't want to be held responsible for any Xanax induced writings that may make their way to the final post.
Keep ya' head up and stop doubting yourself, fucker!
Hugs,
Manny
Link: The Power Gay
My Body Is Limp With Exhaustion
Managed to get a few hours of sleep late this morning after a quick trip to Pathmark, where picked up some breakfast snacks and generic sleep enhancing candy. I'm so drained from my restlessness that I don't have the desire to do much of anything at this point.
Kinda feeling a little something like this...
Kinda feeling a little something like this...
OMFG: THIS MADE MY SLEEPLESS NIGHT!
There are no words. Just sit back and enjoy...
*UPDATE* Shocantelle Brown is played by none other than Laura Bell Bundy of Legally Blonde and Guiding Light fame. Fuck me! White gurl can throw fierce ghetto shade!
Link: I BeWeave Hair Salon
*UPDATE* Shocantelle Brown is played by none other than Laura Bell Bundy of Legally Blonde and Guiding Light fame. Fuck me! White gurl can throw fierce ghetto shade!
Link: I BeWeave Hair Salon
Who needs sleep?!
Have not slept well at all tonight, and I am not amused by this. I usually get up at 4:30a on Mondays, so that may help explain my current state.
Pissed that I don't have a single delicious sleep enhancing treat to help ease my restlessness. I have not replenished my Trader Joe's wine stock recently, so there goes that alternative.
All I can do is lay in bed and sit through an episode of All My Children. However, considering the downward spiral the show has taken, it will likely instigate aggravation than provide comfort.
Goddamn it! I just want to fucking sleep!
Pissed that I don't have a single delicious sleep enhancing treat to help ease my restlessness. I have not replenished my Trader Joe's wine stock recently, so there goes that alternative.
All I can do is lay in bed and sit through an episode of All My Children. However, considering the downward spiral the show has taken, it will likely instigate aggravation than provide comfort.
Goddamn it! I just want to fucking sleep!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Veronika Decides To Die Trailer
Sydney Rutledge, err Kendal Hart, err Buffy Summers takes on a project so far from the realm of Sunnydale I am quite intrigued!
Wiki: Veronika Decides To Die
Wiki: Veronika Decides To Die
No more job-job... (Parte Dos)
Yeah, I am not feeling quite together this morning. Aimless would be the best way to describe my state of mind. The realization that I don't have to prepare for work tomorrow, has left me with very little sense of purpose.
Having already tackled laundry and other miscellaneous housekeeping chores - which I would routinely handle in preparation for another work week at 34th Street - I am presently sprawled in bed wondering what I should do with myself.
Should I DO something? Should I just live in the present moment?
No more job-job...
First day of as a former Sephora employee and all is well - kinda. I'm still in work mode and will likely be so for some time to come. I keep having to remind myself that I don't have to work on Sunday. I don't have to place a Supply Order. I don't have to read e-mails and plan out my work load. I don't have to sign off on Sales and Payroll on Monday - no more waking up at 4:30am! Getting on a plane on Wednesday will be a the first step in my Beauty Depot Detox!
And now for some shits and giggles... Sephora's banned training vidjeo
And now for some shits and giggles... Sephora's banned training vidjeo
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Ciao, Sephora!
The last hour of work felt like the final minutes of the last episode of The Golden Girls... 30+ hugs and kisses later, I have officially departed The Beauty Depot.
"Never say Goodbye! Say Ciao!" - Liberace
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"Never say Goodbye! Say Ciao!" - Liberace
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Location:8th Ave,New York,United States
(1,300) Days of Beauty
Today marks my last day at The Beauty Depot aka The Beauty Authority. What a journey it has been.
Location:W 33rd St,New York,United States
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Look At My Face!
BEFORE
AFTER
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010
And I thought SEGREGATION was OVAH!
This little throwback of '50s era Southern ig'nunce is located on 35th St, betwixt Bergenline and New York Avenue, in Union City. They specialize in stain and color removal with $1 Wash Wednesday!
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Location:Union City,United States
Git yer handz off ya face BITCH!
LAWD in da mornin' I just fell off my bed, I can't get up and my LifeAlert button don't work! If I'd been her, I'd drop ma Vicki's, pull down his Hanes and slid down his pole faster than migrant day worker crossing the border!
Ay Dios Mio, Who Cares Where Vicente Is!?!?! Arturo is HERE!
I dunno what this pendejadeadputabitch's problem is. That is one speciMAN I would not resist! I mean of course I would put up a fight too just to have him throw me around like a ragdoll and ravage me! And how DARE she knock him out!!! Don't she know... You can't doodle with a wet noodle!
Friday, July 16, 2010
HBD2M
One of the signs of passing youth is the birth of a sense of fellowship with other human beings as we take our place among them.
- Virginia Woolf
- Virginia Woolf
Thursday, July 15, 2010
The Twilight(s) I would ACTUALLY see...
Ya'll know how much I loathe the Twatlight Series, but here are a few versions I would actually sit through...
iconsistentOtherwiseSucks 4
So a few weeks back I updated my 3G to iOS4, thinking that while it would not offer all the features available to the 3Gs or 4, it would be a wise move. Yeah NO! This video demonstrates EVERYTHING that is wrong in running a iOS4 on a 3G. Sit back and enjoy... GET FUCKED APPLE!
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
10 Days To Go...
The past two weeks and the forthcoming week will be quite emotional. While I have informed my immediate management team that I will not be returning to work at the end of my vacation, I still have 58 individuals to drop a bomb on.
There are three people in particular I am considerably worrisome about disclosing my choice to move on. The First has worked with me since my promotion into the city. When I relocated to my current store, I requested he be promoted with me. The Second I have watched develop and grow into an amazing individual and is well on her way to be a great leader. The Third has made quite a Sisyphean effort, having been placed in a role not entirely suitable for him.
Part of me feels like I'm abandoning them, yet my moving on also opens a door of opportunity for them - getting them just one step closer to the next level in the retail business food chain. I have rehearsed, imagined and re-imagined what the conversations will be like, but nothing will come close to how things will actually unfold.
There are three people in particular I am considerably worrisome about disclosing my choice to move on. The First has worked with me since my promotion into the city. When I relocated to my current store, I requested he be promoted with me. The Second I have watched develop and grow into an amazing individual and is well on her way to be a great leader. The Third has made quite a Sisyphean effort, having been placed in a role not entirely suitable for him.
Part of me feels like I'm abandoning them, yet my moving on also opens a door of opportunity for them - getting them just one step closer to the next level in the retail business food chain. I have rehearsed, imagined and re-imagined what the conversations will be like, but nothing will come close to how things will actually unfold.
The Stafford BRINGS IT! (@ 0:49sec)
Before I delve into the scene... Nicholas Newman is Daytime's Ultimate D-Bag! Walking away from the woman you claim to love and are willing to fight for? WTF?!
This is an amazing scene, masterfully acted (no surprise there) by Michelle Stafford. Not only does she manage to take walk the viewer through four years of storyline in under five minutes. Her emotional delivery can draw in even the most freshmen viewer. This is an Emmy reel for sure.
This is an amazing scene, masterfully acted (no surprise there) by Michelle Stafford. Not only does she manage to take walk the viewer through four years of storyline in under five minutes. Her emotional delivery can draw in even the most freshmen viewer. This is an Emmy reel for sure.
Monday, July 12, 2010
WTF of the Day:
I am not quite sure that this poor creatura de Dios deserves to be compared to El "Tetas De Azucar" Loco Gibson pero the resemblance is uncanny! And yes I stoled it this picture from DListed. Click la picture to read the actually blog post. JA-SU!!!!
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Don't Fuck With The Mexican!
There were three faux trailers featured during the Grindhouse Double Feature I'd like to see developed into full length features... Thanksgiving, DON'T! and the third already has and coming soon... Check out MACHETE!
Friday, July 9, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
She Rook Rike Miss Swan!
Mira what I found on my way home last night. At first I thought the 3 dirrrttteee martinis I had wuz playin' games wit ma head. But I got the retratos to prove it was no martini haze! Beyond surreal!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
I'm Just Sayin'
To apologize for my personality is equivalent to footbinding. Thanks... I'd rather walk bare.
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Location:New York,United States
Friday, July 2, 2010
2WN
After 5 long years at Sephora I have realized it's time to leave the nest. Although I have secured employment elsewhere, it feels like I have been pushed into the deep end of the pool without warning. I am wary, anxious and excited at the prospect of a new career challenge. The next couple of weeks leading up to the start of my next venture will be quite interesting, to say the least.
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Location:New York,United States
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Crush on Emma S.
I've had a thing for Emma Stone since House Bunny and Superbad. I fell even harder for her with Zombieland.. Can't wait for this next one!
Funker Vogt - A New Beginning
I can see the city lights
When I turn my head
A lake reflects the stars
But I won't come back
The moon shines bright tonight
I can see the coast
Lighted ships right at anchor
Waiting for the head
Deep inside I'm still a child
A tear drops down and you will frown
A new beginning, maybe an end
or is it something in between.
All the friends I ever had
I will never see again.
My old life fades away
Like a teardrop in the ocean.
Deep inside I'm still a child
A tear drops down and you will frown
A new beginning, maybe an end
or is it something in between.
Don't turn back follow the light
Go your way into a new day
I'm on the road again
Don't know where to go
Without a name I search my fate
Down there in the darkness.
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